Will you ever cry so much for not working with someone?

This weekend, I cried so much……

I worked with one senior leader J for 5 years day and day out. She is around 52. Sort like grow under her wing. She is Australian. She is one who molded me into someone who have valuable skills and talents.  When I think of her and it is some same feeling such as warm, genuine, a lot of touching moments mix….

She is senior leader and had many friends in workplace. I guess that a lot of people like work with her as leader due to fair, confident, leadership, resilient skills, fantastic communication skills, high emotion intelligence …. She got along with people who bully me very well too. She needs too. Because a lot of programs involved in room.

Sometimes, she said to me how excellent of S is and how good her documents…… I fully agree with the facts. But I had different views towards people talents. I had one workmate who had good skills to draw and play average piano. Always show off her talents…… But the way she treated another people always so mean, so aggressive. She always acts lecturer and pointed her fingers. The worse is workplace bully.  I agreed with all her sort of talents. For me, if you can’t treat people nice and kind, even she is real top famous artist. I didn’t feel that it is huge deal at all.

Same with her best friends S. I still remembered that one sentence, same group people belong together. It is not huge deal for someone who can write down documents well. It will be rare for someone who will always so kind, give positive comments, think of you, care of you and active listen all the time……

Next year, the management put me in another room with different kind good staffs. I knew that it is so long to work with her and will end one day. She may not as fond as I am fond of her….

But I don’t know why, I just cannot help feeling so sad and cry so much….

I always will think of her and you in my spare time. Like some thought pop such as what you doing? What are you feeling, what do you love? Have you felt better from pain? Have her quit smoking?

More like deep feeling and want to feel or curious what another part feel….

There are 6 my purpose of my life

1, Follow my dream

2, Grow my minds

3, Share my talents with the world.

4, Find friends that inspire me. I need find more.

5, Take care of your body.

6, Live in gratitude.

7. Be service of others.

I found that all this six become content of my purpose of life in this stage. I feel less depression and sad. the reason which I feel so sad and cry a lot. one of reason is miss 3, I didn’t find more people who can inspire me. 6, need service people who value. I didn’t find enough people who can open their heart and also deserve my time and energy to help them successful and happy.